I Have Fallen, Do I Have Hope?

"I'm a failure."

"I used to be the best, but now, I'm a nobody."

"No one appreciates me anymore."

"I wish I could turn back time."



Have you ever seen yourself in those kinds of situations? Have you ever told those lines to yourself?

No one is perfect. We all make mistakes.

The problem lies not on our fall but on not getting up again.

Proverbs 22:29 (NIV)
for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes.



"seven times"... No, I have not fallen just seven times, I have fallen hundreds of times. As I was asking God what "seven times" mean, I came to realize it means seven days. Meaning, we may fall EVERYDAY yet we still have hope because we are righteous. Wait, am I really righteous?

2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV)

God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.


Jesus traded his perfection for us to be righteous in God's sight. Our righteousness does not come from the good things we do but from what Jesus did on the cross.

The only hope I have whenever I fall is what Jesus did. I can still approach God and pray to Him. I can still be with fellow believers because they are the ones who can help me as well go back on the right track.

Easier said than done right? Yeah. Humans are judgmental by nature, and of course, we always think about what other people will think. And that's where the battle begins. Is your relationship with God more important than what other people will think of you?

At the end of the day, getting back up is a decision you have to make for yourself. No one can decide for you. But when you do decide to get back up, God is there willing to help you up. Your godly friends are there to help you up. The good thing about being at our worst is that there's no other way but up.

"Habang may buhay, may pag-asa."

The Day I Got Bored Of Reading The Bible

I've had those days when I choose to do other "fun" things like watching movies, eating, and playing mobile games than reading my Bible. What's wrong with that?

People look up to me as a spiritual leader. And as a leader, I should be setting an example, right? But why am I sharing this weakness of mine to you? Why am I exposing myself to the world that I am not perfect?

We all have high standards when it comes to leaders. For me, a leader is perfect until they prove otherwise. I have high expectations from leaders, don't you? But what if a leader fails? Does it make him or her become less of a leader?

Going back to what i was saying, there were days that I don't feel like reading my Bible. Praying is no problem for me as i talk to God all the time, especially on my alone time or when I'm commuting. But it's really a struggle for me to stick to reading the bible using devotionals. Ironic isn't it? Not really.

Have you ever had a friend who loves to talk all the time? I am like that to God. I talk to Him through prayers. All my thanksgiving, my requests, my anxieties, my problems, my hurts... I share them to God. But sometimes I don't read my Bible where God's response and instructions are written. 

I'm known by my friends as a listener. During conversations, I let other people talk more often. But when it comes to my relationship with God, I'm very talkative. I don't know if it's because I'm a woman or it's my selfishness that hinders me from allowing God to talk to me through His Word sometimes.

But God is faithful. During those times I was not able to read my Bible, He uses a tweet, a Facebook status, a text message, a friend's testimony, and all other stuff to remind me of His response. I thank God for surrounding me with godly friends who are brave enough to correct me when I become so stubborn. 

Fight the good fight for the true faith. Hold tightly to the eternal life to which God has called you, which you have confessed so well before many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12 NLT)

As Christians, we are in a battle. That's why we need to fight for our faith. We need to flee from temptations of "fun" things which lead to destruction in the end. It's not easy, but by God's grace, we are victorious already.

So, have you read your Bible today? :)